should be a bitch more often

i am the most forgiving and understanding person in the world! i think i should stop being so fucking nice all of the time.

others can cause me pain but i am unable to see purely see them as bad people or hate them because of one thing. they are usually still good people. but i wish i could just be mean and bitchy. unfortunately if i have ever remotely cared about the person, then i really can't do that. just not in my nature. oh, but how i wish i could.

i am just a real fucking nice person god-dammit!

i don't want to care.

but i do.

so i am going to continue to be who i am, no matter what.